I am me, I am a person, a person with a voice
I love my Mum, I love my Dad and Grandparents
Day after day, you bad mouth, try to get me to take sides
Don’t you understand, I want and need to see you all.
I am pulled, back and forth, one pulling one way, one pulling the other.
Social media, says how horrible Mum/Dad/Gran and Grandad are
People I have never known, join in the hatred, vile, evil words
These anonymous people are nothing to me, and yet
They write tirades of abuse about one of my parents.
I feel so alone, I am screaming silently, no sound comes out of my mouth,
Why don’t you all listen to me, why don’t you allow me to love you all?
You may not love one another anymore, but that is nothing to do with me,
I deserve a home, I deserve your respect, I deserve to live my life,
To live without the burden of your problems.
I am a child, I am not your support, your counsellor
What you do and say is not about me, it is about you
About you scoring points against one another
About you causing as much pain as you can.
You two made me, it is you two who are destroying me.
I am suffocating, I can find no air, no freedom
I am imprisoned by you, by your control.
Did you ever, will you ever put me first?
I deserve to dream, not to live in fear of nightmares
I need unconditional love, kindness, patience, fun,
I need to feel safe.
Don’t use me as a weapon in your relationship battle
You are supposed to be the adult, you have a responsibility to me
To always put me first.